Poem #2

the second poem that i've posted here. here it is:


 Let the Rain Fall

 The power above
 The power beyond
 All I say is
 Let the rain fall

 Falling from the sky
 Falling down on me
 Feeling the blessings
 From way up above 
 Simply put
 Let the rain fall

 It touches my face
 Soaks my skin
 Yet to me
 It is a blessing
 So I say again

 Let the rain fall

My poem

i write a good deal of poetry, but i have never posted one here before. now i am taking a chance & doing just that. here is a poem i wrote called "the elevator". enjoy:


As I walk into the elevator
He comes
When I see him
I tremble

He is so beautiful
His eyes a beautiful shade of green
Yet they are full of lust & yearning
His smile is sincere
Yet it is cocky
His voice is sweet
Yet it is full of passion
I tremble before him

When he comes close
I tremble before him
I feel myself shiver
I see him smirk
I melt before him

When his lips touch mine
I tremble before him
The feel of his lips
They are so soft
They feel so good
I melt before him

His kiss becomes more
I let myself go
I surrender to him
I let go for him
Oh do I let go for him

I never let him go
He doesn't let go of me
We never let go of each other.

What I do.....

i am someone who just wants to be liked. i like it when i get a compliment. i like it when someone tells me that they like something i did whether it's writing a story or making a youtube video. it just makes me feel good inside. is that wrong?

Yet there are assholes out there who seem to take great pleasure out of ridculing those out there like myself who just want to be liked by saying that my stories suck or my videos are shitty(like someone told me on twitter). those people piss me off.

For me, however, i will not let these lowlife jerks get me down. i feel like i have come a long way in my life to let just a few losers get me down just because they hate what i do.

in other words, if you don't like it, don't watch it or read it. go find something else to occupy your time. don't waste it on me because i won't even acknowledge you or your existance.

i'm done ranting.

Dealing with It

i have had to deal with a lot over the course of my life. sometime i am amazed that i have managed to survive everything that has happened to me. i often wonder what it is. is it luck? it is instinct? i have no idea, but i am willing to find out. with a little help, i just might be able to. it all depends on me. maybe, some day, i'll figure it. then again, maybe i won't. maybe i never will.

Facing facts I don't want to face

There are times in life when there are things that you don't want to face but have to. I am one of those people. See i am facing a fact that is way too hard for me to face, but I face it everyday. It's a fact that makes me want to cry.

I feel that my marriage is falling apart.

I've been married now for 9 years, which in this day & age is considered an eternity. Now I'm beginning to wonder if it is worth holding on to.

Every day I feel it slipping away. Yet I hold on to it because I don't want to fail. I hate failure. Failure kills me inside.

I wish I knew how to fix it. I wish I knew how to keep it afloat. I want it to survive.

I don't want to face it, but I have to.

insanity rules my life(in a way)

i feel as though every part of my life is a little unsettled. for some reason i find myself not able to understand why it is what it is. i often wonder why it is, & usually it's all the time. when my husband catches me daydreaming, he asks me, "What's wrong, babe?" usually i never know how to answer him so i make something up like "oh, nothing," for example. usually it's not nothing. it's my mind coming up with ideas for blogs, for stories, whatever it may be. unfortunately, i sometimes never have the erve to follow through on any of my ideas because i'm afraid i'll be laughed at or i won't get a response. i seem to thrive on what people think even though i shouldn't. i don't know why i do. i just do.

for whatever reason, i'll figure this out. i know i will. it may take time though.

let the insanity begin again

1st off, i want it to be known that i am a HUGE american idol fan. i've been watching the show since season 2(i later watched season 1 on "american idol rewind"), & i found myself hooked like everyone else. i cried when ruben won(i wanted clay to win), i hate fantasia, i'm a huge carrie fan, i wasn't impressed by taylor(big daughtry fan here), & i like jordin so far.
now the whole thing has started up again, & like always, i'm lovin' every minute of it. from the great singers to the ones who really suck, i can't get enough. it's really addicting. :)
it's early so i can't really say who i like & who i don't like. there are a few people, but i'd much rather wait until further along in the show to see which ones shine & which ones fade. it's a process i've followed before.
i like the judges. i like simon the best because he's honest & tells it like it is even thought there have been times where i've wanted to punch him in the mouth. randy is cool too. ryan's a good host, & paula is just looney, what can i say. ;)
i'm lookin' forward to the rest of the season. it should be very interesting, & i'm going to love every minute of it.
peace. ;)